Becoming self aware

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on my past self, and wow… there’s a lot to unpack. The kind of stuff that makes me want to disappear and hide. But instead of sitting in that, I really want to get to a place where I can shrug, laugh, and move on—or even make fun of my past self.

I feel like I’m stuck in this weird place: I hate my past self and wish that person did literally everything differently, but at the same time, I’m struggling to let go of that old ego. Addiction is such a serious thing—there’s nothing funny about destroying your life with hard drugs. But still, I want to laugh at myself again, to roll with life instead of feeling like a complete joke.

How do you find that sense of humor again? Is it just time, practice, or what? I want to have an attitude of, “Pheww… well—that was crazy.”

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Really craziest :flushed:

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