Sometimes when I think about everything that has happened in life and around me, I just feel like everything is not worth it.
When I look around me, it’s hard to see the point. Everything feels overwhelming, and it seems like a constant struggle. It’s like I’m carrying this immense weight, and I’m exhausted. I try to find things to be grateful for, things to hold onto, but honestly, they feel distant and insignificant compared to the pain and emptiness I feel inside. It is not worth it. Sometimes, it’s hard to even remember what it felt like to feel joy or excitement.
It is tiring to put on a brave face and pretend that everything’s alright. And the truth is, I’m not alright. I’m hurting, and I feel incredibly alone, even when I’m surrounded by people. It’s as if there’s this invisible barrier between me and everyone else, and they can’t see or understand the darkness I’m facing.
It’s tempting to just give up, to stop fighting. The thought of continuing to endure this pain, this emptiness, feels unbearable. Why keep going when everything feels so pointless? When every day feels like a battle I’m destined to lose?
I know, deep down, that there might be a way out of this darkness. I’ve heard people talk about hope and finding meaning in life, but right now, those concepts feel so far away, so unattainable. It’s hard to believe that things could ever get better when all I see is a bleak and hopeless future.
But even in this darkness, there’s a tiny part of me that wants to believe it’s possible. A part that wonders if maybe, just maybe, there’s a reason to keep going. It’s a fragile hope, easily overshadowed by the pain, but it’s there. And maybe, that’s enough to start with. Maybe, that small flicker of hope is something I can try to nurture, even when it feels impossible.
I know I need help. I can’t do this alone anymore. It’s just hard to know where to turn or how to even begin asking for that help. But I understand that reaching out is a sign of strength, not weakness, and it might be the first step towards finding a way out of this darkness.
It’s worth stating that if these feelings persist it is important to reach out to someone or to seek professional help. There are people who care and want to support. It is a sign of strength to ask for help.
Thank you for understanding me. I can’t even express myself up to this level. I’m grateful. And I understand that it’s okay to ask for help. I’ll do that. Thank you for your encouragement.