Hey, geminiBlu here

Hey everyone, I’m geminiBlu and new to this platform. I’ve been using for the better part of 12 years now. I used to tell myself that I was “a functional addict with a car, apartment and a job”… Lol It’s true, I do have a car, apartment and a job, but I use pretty much every day. Not proud in saying that. I don’t know who I would be if I was clean. Sad, huh? I’m pretty bad with words, so forgive me. I’d like to end these past few chapters with a new way of life. How? Cold turkey? Get rid of your friends that use? I’m lost. Any thoughts?

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@geminiBlu Welcome to the collective. This doesn’t sound sad, it sounds very familiar to be honest. The hardest part is getting started in recovery. For myself, the only way I could stop using was to get help. There is a TON of support out there for people that want it. I had to take a break from my using friends and totally focus on recovery. I’m not sure how you want to go about it but my journey looked like this: 1. I got a comprehensive assessment. 2. I went to inpatient treatment. 3. Went to sober living and outpatient treatment. 4. Attended A LOT of support groups for the first 3 years of my recovery. Everyones journey looks different, but this is the path that I took. The most important thing I did was make a commitment to recovery and made it my main focus.

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Welcome @geminiBlu !! I went to treatment many times. Every time, except the last I was not ready. I didnt want to end the chapter, so the fact you do is huge. I went to treatment and then sober living. Sober living was the best thing Ive ever done. Met some of my best friends. Got a job I love, and was surrounded by support as I rebuilt my life. I also played on a recovery softball league and recovery hockey league and that was fun. I lost a lot of friends, by choice. realized they weren’t real friends, they were trauma bonds and drug friends.

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