Looking for support after the holidays

Hello everyone. I am a little embarrassed to make this post but I relapsed over the holidays and drank at a Christmas party. I hadn’t really told anyone about trying to stay sober and so it wasn’t really hard to blend in with everybody and drink. I probably should not have put myself in that situation but I really want life to just go back to normal. I don’t want to have to hide all the time and avoid making plans. But I guess in this case I got carried away. I’m open to any suggestions or tips. Thank you.